Tuesday, September 30, 2014

The Path

It has no definition, there is no goal in sight. I began my walk today. Started by eliminating bread, pasta, rice, and potatoes from my diet. My current understanding is these items will be permanently removed from my diet. I am okay with it.

My mood is good. I have not eaten enough today, however I am not hungry. I didn't get anything done, I'd planned to...what a surprise.

The walk will be slow and tomorrow will be better. I will meet my dietary needs and the end will get closer.


Creeps in the Night

For those of you who may or may not know I am one of 50 authors in this marvelous anthology. Proceeds go to Mothers Without Borders.

Links: Paperback: http://www.amazon.com/Creeps-Night-Multiple-Authors/dp/0692303812/ref=sr_1_2?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1412118161&sr=1-2&keywords=creeps+in+the+night

Kindle:: http://www.amazon.com/Creeps-Night-Laura-Jamez-ebook/dp/B00O1QN14G/ref=sr_1_3?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1412118232&sr=1-3&keywords=creeps+in+the+night

Be sure to check them out.

Monday, September 22, 2014

It's My Walk to Make

It is a lonely path, this walking toward the light. I will have many in my corner as I make the journey. While you may walk beside me you cannot make the journey for me.

I am taking steps to a huge life change. I'm making some changes even now, but the major ones will start next week.

My health and being healthy are of the utmost importance to me. I have reached out to some people for support in this. I will add more people to the list when I get to the next stages. What you can do now if you so desire is pray.

I know God is with  me on this journey. You prayers would only help as I walk this path. I see the light. I know it's there. Be patient with me.


Saturday, September 20, 2014

Dropping off the Grid

I am stopping the earth and moving off for a bit. Don't worry about me, I'm going to be fine. I have to work through some health issues and medical staff who have lied to me. I'm following my own path to healing and have a good support group.

I'm going to focus on some things I need to do. Finish a book, work on Macy four, and an ebook. I am taking on some new things, glass fusing, ceramic painting, colored pencil drawing, and Zentangle drawing. It is obvious I am a beginner at colored pencil drawing and Zentangle art, but I will get better. I have a project I need to finish before it gets too cold to work in my garage.

Down time and healing are what is needed. I'm also thinking of taking up yoga or meditation. Along with that learning light language. Art made from ancient writing symbols.

I'll keep you posted on how my progress is. I know this will pass, but I'm going off grid.

Wednesday, September 17, 2014

Who Am I?

Several times in the past few weeks I've been asked to describe myself. There are many ways to describe me. It depends on who I am with, what I am doing, who is asking. 

So, I'm going to start with mercurial. 1.
changeable; volatile; fickle; flighty; erratic:
a mercurial nature.
animated; lively; sprightly; quick-witted. I am all of these and more.

Next, in the way of definition is havoc.
play havoc with,to create confusion or disorder.
I do this, to people who don't know me. I breeze in like a hurricane, mess with their heads, lives, and emotions. Often leaving them wondering what happened, and if I'll be back to fill the void.

I am also compassionate.
a feeling of deep sympathy and sorrow for another who is stricken bymisfortune, accompanied by a strong desire to alleviate the suffering

Finally, I am passionate. When I get involve with something I care deeply about I give it my everything. Writing is my first love. I will promote it, encourage others to try their hand at it, and talk about it until the cows come home. I am also passionate about family and family values. Funny as I have smashed many of those values in my own life only to come back to them.

So, as someone told me recently, I am just one hot mess.

Sunday, September 7, 2014

Hitting the Brick Wall

I feel as though I am beating my head against this wall. Things are not going as planned. I know some of it is out of my control, but I cannot explain the others.

Selling my house has been a nightmare. A year ago I listed in August, late in the season, and we were still getting the outside painted. I shouldn't have listed it, but the realtor made no effort, either. Took it off the market in February. No sense trying to sell in the winter. Found a new agent, told her what my expectations were. Spent a month doing things to be ready. She wanted to low ball the price. I refused. What I am asking is not unreasonable. The trim has been painted, the deck is in by the breezeway. Again, the realtor is worthless. So far, neither realtor I have used has made an effort to show the house. I don't understand.

Weather has not cooperated. I have door trim and the garage door to paint. I have a porch to thoroughly clean and to stain both the porch and the deck. Then everything will be finished. You can't paint when it's humid and you can't paint in the rain. Urgh.

I attempted to start a writing group in July. We actually got in two meetings. One of my regulars has gone off to start work on a Masters Degree. I'm proud of him. One has recently retired and is enjoying travel time. More power to her. One teaches and is back to school, we just haven't found and evening which will work. She brings her husband which is a bonus for all of us. One is a student and back to school as well as being involved in after school activities. One has gone to visit her brother and his family in South Dakota for a few months. I don't feel like a failure. I just don't feel the timing was right.

Allergies have been extreme this summer making for sleepless nights due to coughing or just plain misery. The meds for them either keep me awake or put me to sleep. It's not been warm enough for swimming, hiking, and in general being outside.  Just another frustration.

I am working on book signings. It is always tedious trying to work with Genesee District Library. I am working to get into the library in my parents' hometown. This has been a three year project. I am working on it. This just adds to my frustration.

With all this going on, I cannot seem to focus on either work in progress. I have one I want finished by the end of the week so I can begin edits. The plan is to have it out by November 28th. I also have the release of a book done by an author I contracted with.

I know this will pass. I am hunkering down as I know in my heart, I'll be spending another winter in Michigan. Something which breaks my heart. I have a work schedule for writing, crocheting, glass fusing, and I'm going to try my hand at a couple other crafty things. I need things to keep me busy.

My head tells me things will happen when they are supposed to. I just want to be moved, settled, and starting my next adventure.



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