Hitting the Brick Wall

I feel as though I am beating my head against this wall. Things are not going as planned. I know some of it is out of my control, but I cannot explain the others.

Selling my house has been a nightmare. A year ago I listed in August, late in the season, and we were still getting the outside painted. I shouldn't have listed it, but the realtor made no effort, either. Took it off the market in February. No sense trying to sell in the winter. Found a new agent, told her what my expectations were. Spent a month doing things to be ready. She wanted to low ball the price. I refused. What I am asking is not unreasonable. The trim has been painted, the deck is in by the breezeway. Again, the realtor is worthless. So far, neither realtor I have used has made an effort to show the house. I don't understand.

Weather has not cooperated. I have door trim and the garage door to paint. I have a porch to thoroughly clean and to stain both the porch and the deck. Then everything will be finished. You can't paint when it's humid and you can't paint in the rain. Urgh.

I attempted to start a writing group in July. We actually got in two meetings. One of my regulars has gone off to start work on a Masters Degree. I'm proud of him. One has recently retired and is enjoying travel time. More power to her. One teaches and is back to school, we just haven't found and evening which will work. She brings her husband which is a bonus for all of us. One is a student and back to school as well as being involved in after school activities. One has gone to visit her brother and his family in South Dakota for a few months. I don't feel like a failure. I just don't feel the timing was right.

Allergies have been extreme this summer making for sleepless nights due to coughing or just plain misery. The meds for them either keep me awake or put me to sleep. It's not been warm enough for swimming, hiking, and in general being outside.  Just another frustration.

I am working on book signings. It is always tedious trying to work with Genesee District Library. I am working to get into the library in my parents' hometown. This has been a three year project. I am working on it. This just adds to my frustration.

With all this going on, I cannot seem to focus on either work in progress. I have one I want finished by the end of the week so I can begin edits. The plan is to have it out by November 28th. I also have the release of a book done by an author I contracted with.

I know this will pass. I am hunkering down as I know in my heart, I'll be spending another winter in Michigan. Something which breaks my heart. I have a work schedule for writing, crocheting, glass fusing, and I'm going to try my hand at a couple other crafty things. I need things to keep me busy.

My head tells me things will happen when they are supposed to. I just want to be moved, settled, and starting my next adventure.

TTFN